Happpyyy Birthday Jeejs!

Do all the new beginnings have *and they lived happily ever after* ends shown in the movies? Do fairy-tale come true? Do dreams really come true? If I go by my experiences in life, I would say No to all the above questions.  It’s hard for me to believe the other way, but when I look at this guy, I tend to give my *Nos* a second thought. He has made my sister’s story complete, her dreams are met, she has got her Prince Charming and they are living happily. They have small-cute fights and then they patch up, they can’t live without talking to each other. She is the most important person in his life and he is someone who she can’t live without. Thanks Jeejs for making my sister feel so special! And thanks for being my good friend. You have warned me of something and then, tried to help me get out of the troubles, without making me feel guilty. I know I can always count on you guys! You’re the best! Happy Birthday Hurshyu!

Happy Birthday Dostaar!

She is my love,  my best friend,  my trash bag in which I can throw all my secrets, my frustration, my insane thoughts and my tears. When I am mad at someone,  I call her up and yell at her, when I don’t get a job, I call her up to crib about employers in Canada, when I fight with my “other” best friend and I need a shoulder to cry on, I ask her to come over and take me out for a coffee and then when she does that, I embarrass her by singing on top of my voice on road with people staring at us like we have ran away from a mental asylum. She hits me and pinches me with one hand, other being of the accelerator of her Activa.  Then she smiles and joins me in the song. I met her during college and I can’t imagine how boring my college life would have been if she wasn’t with me. She would take care of the school toddlers (which we both, as teachers, are responsible for) while I would be busy texting to my guy best friend. She would signal me before a teacher enters the class so that I have enough time to end my call and go to the class. When I am late for class, she would keep the back-door of the class open so that I can sneak in with coffee for me and hot chocolate for her, without getting into trouble. She would explain me the basic concepts of the topics as the course was new to me and she had been studying in that field for like ages! Her phone would be full of my pictures clicked by her in college. She is one of the best photographers I have ever known.  She would not come to see me off on the airport because she wouldn’t be able to muster the courage to see me going away from her but still, she would pray whole heartedly for my visa approval. She would join in with my guy best friend to make fun of me, but she someone ever hurts me she would blow him/her off. It’s her birthday today, I GOT to be with her and all I can do right now, is write this blog post for her while waiting for my bus to come so that I can head for work and reach there on time! Life is strange and unpredictable! Sometimes you feel so so so helpless, you can’t be with people you want to be with because of whatever logically and practically right reasons! You’re A Keeper! Thanks for being there for me! I miss you love! I wish I could be there with you! Happy Birthday! And And And Happy Teacher’s Day Madam! Love you.

PS: I just wrote this blog in 10 minutes, on my way to work, so ignore the errors. Love you!

Letter To THE GOD

Dear God,

People say that you exist. They say god never lets anything wrong, unjust and unfair happen to anybody because we all are his children. They say what goes around comes around. I do believe in karma but what I don’t understand is how can someone know what is she punished for? I have seen people who have adopted humanity as their only religion, people who have always tried to help the ones who are in need, people who do their best to avoid hurting others, ultimately such people suffer the most. Ever since I was a kid my mom and my ba taught me that people, no matter how good or bad they are, have to pay for their actions (karma). I was taught that in order to annihilate karma, one must repent and empathize for her wrong deeds. One can also fast or control taste in order to acquire “Nirjara”. Once she repents and empathizes, her suffering lessens. My question to you is how would anyone know what is she being punished for? How would a person who has always been “good” to everybody, all her life, know where she went wrong? Are you not being unfair to that person? Doesn’t she deserve to know the reason? If not that, doesn’t she deserve to get her demands/dreams/wishes met once she has been through the hard times and is sorry for something she doesn’t even know she has done wrong? If not that, doesn’t she deserve a conversation with you in order to have her questions answered? If she is really your child, shouldn’t she get the attention she needs from you? By ignoring her, are you not being unfair to her?

Why a new born baby who has just arrived in this world suffers from brain or lung or whatever disease? Is it because of her previous life’s karma? Is it your way of punishing her for something wrong that she has done in her previous life? If it is, then how would she be able to empathize? A new born baby who doesn’t even know who her mother is until she gets familiar with her mother’s smell, know what she is being punished for and repent for something that she isn’t aware of? And if she isn’t able to repent, how would she annihilate her karma? Isn’t punishing someone without telling them the reason why they are being punished unfair?

I wish to talk to you, connect with you, and believe in you! They say, “You need to connect with your inner self in order to connect with God.” Really? I am honest with myself still I am not able to find you! Do you really exist? Tell me soon because I don’t want to doubt my faith!

Looking forward to your REPLY, hehe

Love,

Pruthvi